Fuck, I’m a manifestor. Now what? Informing
Let's get honest. I have far more experience with lying than I do with informing. I learned that tactic early on in life.
Step 1. Tell them what they want to hear so they don't say no.
Step 2. Go do what you want to do.
Step 3. Lie about it.
A manifestor child wants to do what they feel like doing. And hearing "no" often enough, well... That's at least how the story unfolded for me.
Like I said in the blog The Lone Wolf, we need to relearn the art of informing.
You find out you are a manifestor, and they tell you your strategy is to inform before taking action. What the fuck does that even mean, though?
I watch my 5-year-old godson Thias, and all he does is inform. He is a 3/5 emotional manifestor defined by the 35/36 (I know, my poor sister, haha). Every time we hang out, I watch him inform us about what is up, where he is going, and what he will do next. It's gorgeous to watch and experience. It makes me wonder, did I once master this art? Is this something growing up and societal norms have beaten out of me, or is my godson just like that? I don't know.
All I know is that it does not come naturally to me today.
Those fluffy fucking Instagram posts saying, "Just inform us," can fuck themselves. Because this is not natural, at least as an adult. We are completely drawn into this generator world and find resistance in that. It is MUCH easier to retreat, initiate and ship it into the world without talking to YOU about it. What the hell? This is not biological. This is unlike responding, waiting for recognition, or a lunar cycle. This is pretending.
I once saw a comment telling a manifestor that she was making informing out harder than it is. I asked this person if they were a manifestor. They replied yes and had "read online that manifestors just needed to decondition around the idea that informing is hard."
I'd love to have this conversation if you would talk about your personal experience and not "what you have read online." And let's then talk about the steps needed to get there. Because this is all about experiencing it with our body and not our fucking mind.
I will never make something out to be easier than it is. And a note to remind you that this is my personal experience and might not be yours.
Also, I want to go on record and say this. Never let your lack of understanding of how informing works hold you back from initiating what your authority is moving you to do! (just make sure it's your authority talking and not the pressure of the not-self)
Something is to be said about experimenting with and learning how to inform others; it can benefit your life and those around you. But dare I say this is an art we learn over a lifetime? Just due to the generator world we live in, where responding is the norm? I don't know.
We are told to "let them know what's going on before taking action" and in the beginning, for me, it was like, why? I don't fucking understand why. But then I started to notice it. The way someone would look at me if I got up from my chair or moved in a direction they didn't expect me to. The moment I noticed and informed them of my intention and action plan, there was a relaxation I could see in their entire body.
It made it easier for them. Not so much me, to be honest. I'm used to going alone, doing it myself. That is until I met my husband. He is still teaching me how to inform by asking for and accepting help 16 years later.
Not too long ago, I didn't inform my husband of something. It wasn't the most pleasant experience for him, to say the least.
He was sleeping in the guest room and is used to me sleeping much longer than him. I had woken up very early with the urge to write and had the "ping" to send him a message and let him know so that when he checked his phone, he was informed.
But I didn't follow the "ping." (This thing I call a "ping" is a spark of inspiration from above.)
He woke up and heard nothing. Like he said, "Jessica, you are easy to hear. You leave a sound no matter where you go or what you do. But there was no sound. No life signal."
The day before, I had an explosion of my tribal 19-49 wave, and I have gate 49.5… In mars…. In detriment... I can get selfish and have immature principles that don't make sense. We have a name for this part of me "Principica" - a mix of principles and Jessica.
I had told him that I was ok, that we were ok. I told him I loved him. Everything was fine. But his completely open solar plexus is something he is working on understanding. And I admire him for his effort in not taking my emotions personally.
On this day, he actually thought, "has she left me now?" I find that the energy of "off with his head" can come with the explosion of this tribal wave - for me. This channel is not easy to live with and is entirely in my design. I am only more in awe of how my husband is learning to sit with it, knowing it is not his or personal.
Had I just listened to the ping, he would have not had that experience. Had I just informed. And just so you are informed, the thought crossed him for a second, our marriage is very strong. Our love is insane <3
Being married to an emotional manifestor is not easy. More on that in another blog.
So informing others has sometimes been to soften the blow of the impact. I don't know if that is the right way to say it, but that's how it's coming out now.
Back to the blog about Repelling Aura - people cannot read our aura, and we need to let them know what's up.
When it comes to who, not everyone has the right to know. Actually, no one has the RIGHT to know. But letting others know may (or may not) get them off your back and can be a gesture of respect for those closest to you.
Informing has the POTENTIAL to move restrictions out of the way but does not guarantee it.
Do you really think she didn't have a million questions when I informed my mother about selling our house with no real plan for what we are going to do once it is sold?
Yeah.. right.
The understanding that informing is
1. easy
2. natural
3. "The magic sauce."
Is false in my experience.
Informing the universe, speaking out loud, being mindful of those closest to you, initiating the shit out of what our authority is moving us to do - I'm all in for that.
I believe we can, over time, relearn to master the art of informing.
On the flip side - we need information. I have noticed how crazy angry I can get if I am not appropriately informed. Especially if that lack of information led me to use unnecessary energy. That doesn't really happen anymore now that I quit my job. Perhaps that should be a blog post of its own... We will see.
And remember, informing is never about telling another person what to do.
