How my love for Human Design started

My journey started in late 2019. I had just filed bankruptcy for my franchised coffee shop and was burnt out, dead tired, and had no idea what to do next.

I felt like my life was crumbling, and I found myself in a haze of unknowing and surrender. I knew I wanted to use my skills as a leader, mindfulness instructor, and mindset coach (the skills I had honed over the past decade) to search for "what is next?" This process took me down many paths, and one of them was enrolling in an online business program.

The business coach had a webinar where they spoke to previous students, and one of them caught my interest. I started following them, and they would post about human design, business, and how they ran their business as a manifestor. I could feel drawn in; what is this human design thing?

My open head was happy to do the google dance, and I found my free chart.

Energy type: Manifestor

Profile: 6/2

Cross: Left cross of informing

There was so much. It was too advanced. It was hard to understand.

So I let it go. Still, it lingered in the background while I let my mind assume control like it always had.

A few months later, I was in a different course, and while in a breakout room, a person started talking about human design. I said I had heard about that and that all I knew was that I was a manifestor. They said something along the lines of "I could have guessed that." They wanted me to send them my chart so that they could send me some information about my chart. So I did, and they sent a few pictures from some books.

I had just turned 35 and was "on the roof" as a 6-line profile. For me, this had been hard. I felt alien compared to who I used to be; I had cut off so many people, I had stopped doing so much of the things I used to, and most of all - over the past 5-7 years, I had felt like I was turning into someone else. But in another way, not really. I felt so alone, and there was no way to explain what was happening inside me. I had nothing left to give the old drama and life I used to lead.

I was in hermit mode in a way I had never experienced.

And reading about the 6/2 profile left me in tears of relief. I was not going mad. I had not lost my love for life; I was just in a transformation process. I was in an integration process. I was "on the roof." (more about that in another blog)

After this, I started diving deep into Human Design and reading all the free resources on Jovian Archive, doing the google dance, and understanding that different people have different views on the system. I found my love in listening to Ra's lectures and finding guidance in his voice. Endlessly grateful for YouTube.

As the pandemic roared, I was working harder than anyone else. Even if I was exhausted, I was deep in my conditioning of stepping up and fixing things. And my husband's job was just as well banned (he is an international wedding photographer...) So I was the restaurant manager of a tiny restaurant, and I had an extra job working with troubled youth. That took over my focus, my mind took charge, and I let it go again, knowing more and feeling the daily nudge of "Is this an urge? Is this an emotional wave? Shit, that was the wrong timing..."

Come August 2020; I was in yet a business mentoring program where I met Maria Henning. She was finishing up her human design classes and was offering sessions. I felt the calling. Its time.

I booked my reading with her, had it, and was blown away. I was stunned at how she waved my design together, how I felt so seen and like I was coming home to who I knew I was all along. At this point, I started investing my time and energy into really leaning into my design and taking small steps of informing and listening for the right timing, understanding when I was completely off, and that was often.

This was a long process. This IS a long process. Deconditioning takes seven years, Ra said, and I get why he said that, but I also believe that mastery is a lifelong process. And what is mastery? For me, it's seeing when I am not aligned with my design—noticing when I'm allowing my mind to make the decisions—paying attention on purpose with no judgment.

By March 2021, I had found my mentor, Emelie Erikson, and I was enrolled in everything she had to offer. 2021 I took gigantic leaps of faith in my urges, initiated what others found to be insane, and started honoring my body and who I am at my core. 2021 was a year of expansion and confusion. I was re-learning who I am. I was connecting to parts of me I didn't know were there. I was battling what I thought I knew and what I knew to be true in my body.

I quit both my jobs.

I left a business I had created with a few others.

I started communicating with my husband in a new way.

I started seeing my relationships in a new light.

I was following my urges; I was surrendering to the emotional waves and mindfully making decisions from a calm place.

It was all counterintuitive to my conditioning, but I could feel this peace arise the more I experimented with my design. And that is the shift I want for you.

In February 2022, I started taking on my first clients. My purpose is to empower you to live your designs, lean into who you are, and show you all your potential and pitfalls. I can handle the shit storm you have going on, and I gracefully guide you to your highest expression. I permit you to lean into who you are and trust that you know what is right for you.

If you are ready to dive in, start here: